June 2011
My Studio shoot went better than I expected, really happy with it. My next prac assessment is a documentary. I’ve decided I’m going to do it on same sex marriage.

Him: You intrigue me.
Me: How?
Him: We spend so much time together and get along so well but you don’t want a relationship.
Me: I have been burned already.
Him: I’m not going to burn you.
Me: That’s what all my ex’s said.
Him: I’m not you’re ex’s.
Me: I know.
Him: If I’m with someone I don’t cheat and I don’t hurt them.
Me: Well you can’t cheat on me and you can’t hurt me. Cos we’re not together. That’s how I like it.
Him: Whatever.
When did I become someone with such an emotional void ?
This is a tough one that I have had to deal with myself.
My ex was quite well off and would always pay for meals and drinks etc, which made me feel a little awkward because I have been brought up to pay my own way. I would always try and give him money or sometimes just sneak off and get the bill before he did.
It does bother me only because I feel bad and like I’m taking advantage or something. But he would explain that he likes taking me nice places and doing things with me, he knows that I’m a student and can’t afford it like he can, he wouldn’t take me out unless he wanted to etc etc.
It’s mostly a matter of pride. He probably feels inferior or something. He just need to let him know that you’re only doing these things because it makes you happy to see him happy and you want to do fun things together. Let him pay for things sometimes because he’ll feel like he’s contributing.
It’s a hard one cos everyone is different. Just make sure he knows that you aren’t trying to make him a trophy wife, you just want to do things for him cos it makes you happy to do them.
Hope my ramblings helped, let me know how it goes.
I don’t know! I’m sure no more pot than any other country.
Do YOU masturbate?
Trust me you don’t want to hear that. I desperately wish I could sing, boys who sing just melt me. But alas dear anon, I cannot.
I do however still attempt to sing terribly, in the shower, in the car, at work, when grocery shopping, when waiting for the tram. Apologies to anybody out there who has had to endure it.

I’m not OK-K-K
Once again my heart got in the Way-ay-ay
Yes i do. Say hi next time you’re there. And I know he’s interested but I’m not ready to give myself to someone else yet. I have been burned too many times and too recently.
Absolutely babe. I can’t wait to come visit. High five to sailing solo!
Well the oldest guy I have dated was 19 years older than me. He was 43 when I was 24. But it was only a casual thing, I don’t think I would start a serious relationship with someone that much older than me, just because we would be in such different stages of our lives. I prefer guys to be around my age or a few years older than me.
